Sarah Wetzel: "Martini with Borges' Eyes"

 

MARTINI WITH BORGES' EYES

 

They don’t have the intimate easy touches of brothers

or lovers, yet their close conversation suggests

they’ve known each other a long time

 

perhaps childhood friends separated year

after year after one or the other moved

to London for work for a marriage

 

that’s since ended. Now reunited over gin

and vermouth, the two, forty-somethings, don’t notice

how alike they’ve remained.

 

Each unconsciously mimes the other—thumbs hook

in the pockets of recently bought jeans, their heads

tilt in unison, then both nod

 

one mouthing right right right as the other

says something agreeable, his lips forming words

I just make out through the bar’s darkness—

 

You know, Borges wasn’t really blind, at least

not completely. This stops me

and I search their winter pale faces

 

for something

like irony or wit, but they are each

intent on the other. If not blind

 

then what of Borges’ hunger for libraries,

descriptions of books that in his poems smelled

of yesterday’s rain. Though his fear

 

of mirrors suddenly seems rational—I see no one

or some other self. Borges dreamed

the Ganges and of white tigers, their bones

 

heaving beneath covers

of skin, though later Borges admitted

his tigers were just symbols

 

like the word blind

like the darkness that would not exist

but for these unreliable instruments, eyes.

 

 

Sarah Wetzel is the author of Bathsheba Transatlantic, which won the 2009 Philip Levine Prize for Poetry and will be published by Anhinga Press in the fall of 2010. Her work has appeared in Rattle, Pedestal, Stirring, DecomP, Folly, TwoReview, Shampoo, and Eclectica.